The M Word

I realize that most bloggers with children Hate the term "mommy Blogger" and I apologize for using it - but Damn! I love me some Mommy Blogging! Of the 23 blogs I read (having already read ALL of their archives) only six are about women who don't have children - all though one of them is currently pregnant. I'm not sure why I am so drawn to these women since we don't have all that much in common, but I do know that they inspire me.

I figured out a while ago that I am not supposed to be a mother. LD and I have discussed it at length, and while I truly believe he would be an amazing dad, it's just not for us. The whole idea of pregnancy and birth, not to mention having to be responsible for another life Terrifies me. While LD may be a fantastic dad, I would be a terrible mother. I would be an neurotic, petrified, impatient, mother who would basically spend her life in fear of doing something wrong or losing my shit, or God forbid losing my kid. Those who may say "Oh you say that, but it's different when it's your baby" may be right, but for me it's just not an option. I know in my heart that I don't have the strength to to do it, and while that may change (who knows!) it is not something I see or plan for myself.

So I don't know why I'm hooked on these ladies stories -it's like crack! I read them, disagree with them, umm judge them (which obviously I have no right - but I'm human) and most of all I admire them. Not only for being moms, but finding time to write. These are women who are far busier than I am, and yet they find time to write, they turn their stories into books, they socialize with other amazing women, they cook amazing meals, they pour their lives out and for a couple minutes each day I get to see what it would be like to be a mother. While I can't see that life for myself I admire those who risk everything, sanity included, to be a mom. It's pretty fuckin cool. So here is a list of my top five favorite mommy bloggers:

Dooce (OF COURSE!! How could i not love a mom who loves the Arcade Fire?)
Julia (I wish you updated more often!)
The Underwear Drawer (who knew medicine and motherhood could be so entertaining!)
Reagan's Blob ( your story is amazing, and I LOVE your style, someday I will be able afford to come to NY and get you do cut my hair)
and last and totally most important: Reveling in the Moment - I may be biased, but you are one awesome mom with the most beautiful children, and you inspire me sooo much. Love you!

And to my Mom - who may not blog (and I'm super surprised she doesn't) although you may be the hardest woman in the world to shop for, you are my favorite mom ever. I miss you more than I ever thought I could, and I love you even more than that.

Happy Mom's Day